I Didn't Change My Husband, But I Wrote a Post - On Why Starting Is the Hardest Part

6:09 AM, Hurghada, Egypt. I wake up with that familiar feeling of every organ in my stomach doing backflips. Even though I know it well, I've never quite made peace with it. I know what it means - inevitable change is coming.

Lately, I've changed almost everything in my life: the country I live in, my son's school, my wardrobe (the climate here does its thing), and even my hair color. (Yes, yes - I left my husband unchanged - sorry for the spoiler.)

So why not make one more change, seemingly small and insignificant?

The Monster on the Other Side

Creating content for social media has always triggered panic attacks for me. As if on the other side of that post wasn't a person like you, but a black, shapeless monster capable of devouring me, breaking through the barriers of time and space that separate us.

Hidden Potential

They say our biggest fears hide our greatest potential. I've always been curious about what potential my social anxiety might be hiding. And like in real fairy tales... wondering was as far as I got.

The Pink Circle

Now, sitting on a terrace in a foreign country, watching a pink circle emerge from the sea, I decide that curiosity will win. After all, hey - I convinced my husband, who was in love with our apartment in a small Polish town, to leave it behind, take our son and dog, and venture into the unknown with me.

Can't I handle one more post?

The Treasure at the End of the Rainbow

There's so much I can and want to share: how to be a freelancer in this world and survive (i.e., how I specifically built a sense of self-worth that translates into backlash and earning). I really regret that a few years ago no one told me how to put this whole freelancing thing together organizationally and mentally.

Another thing is discovering the pros and cons of homeschooling - how to get along with a 10-year-old CEO who doesn't feel like cooperating and questions the point of teaching multiplication tables. I'll tell you how we manage, and I'd love to hear your stories if you face similar challenges.

There will also be a bit about photomanipulation from behind the scenes. And, of course, about how I overcome my anxiety to write the next post.

Will I share my treasure this time to find an even bigger one inside myself? Perhaps we'll find out together if you stick with me on this journey to the end of the rainbow.